Been busy with school.... sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't..... some days it keeps me distracted... things to think about instead of the battle inside my head.... ot hgv er days it's the problem.... too much on my plate at once... one mistake can feel like the end of the world... one stupid little thing can keep me awake for hours and hours... sometimes even all night long.... then theres being alone... I dont make friends easily... and theres even fewer that I actually know... ask me for a phone number of a classmate... I have 4.... including my sister... I listen and pay attention to what others say... I try to get to know people, but nobody takes the effort to even try to know me.... I can be sitting in a room with 20 people but still be alone.... or evening's like this one... I went to work then to class.... came home to an empty appartment again.... it's not my sisters fault shes busy or any of my few friends faults but that doesn't make being alone all the time suck any less... in a world so populated with people how is it possible to be this lonely.....
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